Courage can come from many places: supportive words from friends and family, an inspirational story, or from deep within yourself.
Well, for me, it came from Pinterest. Not the site per say, but from the quotes I had curated (doesn’t that sound fancy) on one of my boards.
In my last post I talked about my mind-blowing decision to quit my job. But, I still had to give my notice. That would be easier said than done. I’d worked with these people for what felt like forever in my 36-year-old mind. The night before I gave my resignation I frittered about, unable to settle myself. My husband offered me a glass of wine and I said, “no.” Yikes!
Then I logged onto Pinterest and found my new board of inspirational quotations. You know things like “hang in there” or “there is no I in team.” Well, instead of those gems, I had pinned things like:
“If we wait until we’re ready, we’ll be waiting the rest of our lives.” –Lemony Snicket
“If you are not willing to look stupid, nothing great is ever going to happen to you.” –Dr. Gregory House
“Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith.” –Margaret Shepard
I read through quotes from the likes of Mark Twain, Calamity Jane and Pablo Picasso. Some were not credited to an author; some were about unicorns and mermaids. The butterflies in my stomach settled and my mind stopped rehearsing the resignation speech it had been stuck on all day.
The jitters found me again in the morning, but I pushed them aside. I walked into my boss’s office and just did it. She took it well and that was it. I was a victor over my own self-doubt and society’s insistence on a life of conformity.
The remaining weeks of my six-year tenure, floated by. My last day came and went as if nothing special had happened. I mean, people said their goodbyes. I had a lovely going away party. I gave away treasured items from my cube. Who knew a picture of Ace Ventura with my head plastered over Jim Carey’s would be so coveted?
But nothing special happened inside me. I just walked out of the building for the last time and loaded my things in the car. I didn’t crumple with regret or have confetti thrown over me with trumpets blaring. I didn’t feel sad or afraid or excited or anything. I just was. It was strange. I guess I was just content, satisfied maybe?
I woke up the next day and logged onto my Pinterest account. I clicked on one of my favorite quotes and “the people who pinned this also pinned” feed came up. I scanned down until I found it. The perfect quote:
“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different…” –C. S. Lewis
Then, of course, since I am a Pinterest addict, I also found:
“That was the day she made herself the promise to live more from intention and less from habit.”
Very appropriate I thought, until I stumbled upon this one:
“Oh, dear. I really ought to do something but I am already in my pajamas.”
Wow, it’s like they read my mind. Not really though, I am actually quite productive in my pajamas. What do you think I was wearing when I wrote this?
P. S. If you’re wondering about the mermaid and unicorn quotes here they are:
“Always be yourself. Unless you can be a unicorn. Then always be a unicorn.” –Author Unknown
“I still like to pretend I’m a mermaid whenever I go swimming. (I’m 28)” –Author Unknown